I Am Restless...

This feeling usually precedes some sort of spiritual awakening of some degree. 

It feels like sandpaper on my soul.

The first time I felt it, I was working at a florist in 2006, making great use of my degree in Child Development. ;) 

I loved that job. 

 I loved the people I worked for, I loved the creative outlet of designing floral arrangements. 

I loved walking into the flower shop and smelling beauty.

I loved the sentiment of the gesture of sending flowers to someone.  

But this annoying restless feeling wouldn't go away.

I felt God saying, "I've called you for more."

One Sunday morning, I was reading the announcements in the church bulletin and noticed they were needing a  2-yr-old teacher at the preschool.

I knew this was the source of the sandpaper.  

I called the director, which happened to be a good friend, and the next day I interviewed and was hired.  

I loved that job, too. 

I worked there a year until I became pregnant with Maddie.  

The next time I felt this annoying feeling was in 2014.  

The year before had been one of the worst years of my life. 

My neighbor invited me to a writer's workshop for victims of the 2013 tornado. 

I didn't realize I had unresolved issues, but was interested in attending.

I had no idea that would lead to one of the most powerful spiritual lessons of my life.  

It's back again.  

If history repeats itself, change is coming.  

My go-to band when I get like this is Switchfoot. 

I love their sound, their message of making the most of the time we have, their intensity.  

It's good stuff.

I also like Bethel's In Over My Head

In the lyrics of that song, 

"Whether I sink, whether I swim, it makes no difference when I'm

beautifully in over my head."

Right now it feels like winter, 

but I'm hoping spring is right around the corner.