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After being told I would never be able to have children, I am now a stay-at-home Mommy to Maddie who happens to have Down Syndrome. I've been married 16 years to my best friend, having the time of my life. Thanks for stopping by and sharing in our little journey through life.

Thursday, December 10, 2015

I Am Restless...

This feeling usually precedes some sort of spiritual awakening of some degree. 

It feels like sandpaper on my soul.

The first time I felt it, I was working at a florist in 2006, making great use of my degree in Child Development. ;) 
I loved that job. 
 I loved the people I worked for, I loved the creative outlet of designing floral arrangements. 
I loved walking into the flower shop and smelling beauty.
I loved the sentiment of the gesture of sending flowers to someone.  

But this annoying restless feeling wouldn't go away.
I felt God saying, "I've called you for more."

One Sunday morning, I was reading the announcements in the church bulletin and noticed they were needing a  2-yr-old teacher at the preschool.
I knew this was the source of the sandpaper.  
I called the director, which happened to be a good friend, and the next day I interviewed and was hired.  

I loved that job, too. 
I worked there a year until I became pregnant with Maddie.  

The next time I felt this annoying feeling was in 2014.  
The year before had been one of the worst years of my life. 

My neighbor invited me to a writer's workshop for victims of the 2013 tornado. 
I didn't realize I had unresolved issues, but was interested in attending.

I had no idea that would lead to one of the most powerful spiritual lessons of my life.  

It's back again.  

If history repeats itself, change is coming.  
My go-to band when I get like this is Switchfoot. 

I love their sound, their message of making the most of the time we have, their intensity.  
It's good stuff.

In the lyrics of that song, 
"Whether I sink, whether I swim, it makes no difference when I'm
beautifully in over my head."

Right now it feels like winter, 

but I'm hoping spring is right around the corner.