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After being told I would never be able to have children, I am now a stay-at-home Mommy to Maddie who happens to have Down Syndrome. I've been married 16 years to my best friend, having the time of my life. Thanks for stopping by and sharing in our little journey through life.

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

A New Beginning

Sometimes I plod through life knowing God is in control.  Sometimes I look back on events and see God's fingerprints at work in my life.  It's a rare season when I am fully aware and experiencing God as an event unfolds.  This is my story of God's mysterious workings.  
A few months ago I met my neighbors across the street for the first time.  She was expecting and wondered if I might want to watch her baby after she was born.  During that conversation, I could smell the aroma of Christ, but in my heart I was declining the offer.  That answer never sat well with me. I could feel stirrings in my heart and I began to wonder what God was up to. 
The next time I was able to visit with my neighbors, child care had not been settled.  During that conversation, God quietly whispered, "You can do this." I began to let the thought settle.  
One of life lessons God has taught me throughout the years when it comes to making decisions is this, "Sometimes there is no wrong decision.  God is big enough to work with whichever decision we choose."
With that lesson learned, I felt like this was different, a new lesson lay underneath the rock He was waiting for me to pick up.
I prayed.  I asked for wisdom, discernment.  I feared my heart was deceiving me. 
One day while I was praying, I went over with God the things holding me back. "What about my plans to train for a marathon." "Will taking this on hinder my role as wife and mother?"  "What about my needs?"
God said, "Trust me.  Allow me to take care of your needs.  There is a time and place for everything."
You would think I would have been on board at this point, but I was still tentative.  God continued pursuing me.   
I was reading Professor Grant Horner's Bible Reading System where you read 10 chapters in the Bible a day, but you skip around from book to book, only reading one chapter per book. 
I happened to be in the book of Judges.  
I read the story of Gideon and the fleece. Still not convinced if this was a request God was asking of me, I put out  a fleece.  I decided to wait.  If I was contacted once more to watch the new baby, that would be a sign this is what God wants. It happened. 
Just like Gideon, I still doubted!  
Throughout these weeks, I sought wisdom from others concerning the answer, and the same answer came from each of them, "Agree to watch the baby at least through Christmas break."
Before I was able to share my thoughts, I received another message from my neighbor.  "Even if you just wanted to watch the baby through Christmas break, we could find other arrangements at the beginning of the year." 
My second fleece.  
 "Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5-6


  1. Just want you to know that I am the grandmother of the baby you have been trying to decide whether you would babysit or not. I too, have been skeptical about the situation just not knowing anything about you, but my daughter kept telling me she felt very good about the situation and how nice of a person you were. She sent me your blog and I want you to know between reading your blog and God calming my fears, I too have a feeling of relief knowing that someone that lives by the scripture is keeping my precious, precious grandbaby. Thanks for putting so much love and prayer into your decision.

    I also want to tell you that your little girl is a precious gift from God and I feel you are such a blessed person.

    Thanks in advance for caring and loving my precious grandbaby.

  2. Thank you! We are very excited.

    You are right. We are so very very blessed with Maddie! She's such an amazing gift.

    I look forward to meeting you some day!